The vulnerability project

 Two weeks my friends.  Wow wow wow! I appreciate all the support I’ve been getting! Thank you!  I am officially in the green and have been for days! Last night I reached 99! As a reminder, on June 15th, it was 288. That at the very least feeeels like a rapid drop.  So how am I feeling? My body feels great! I have started daily Michael Scott style walkabouts. I decided to try and make the walks feel fun. I listen to my favorite music, take photos and videos, and share it with the world. There is something to be said about taking a moment to really appreciate the beauty of your hometown up close. Sure, I’ve driven around a lot of these places hundreds of times… but had I stopped to smell the roses? Certainly not. So far, my shortest walk was a mile and a half, the longest 3. It’s be greaaat to observe the world, see all happy faces and just being in the world.  The reason why I chose walking instead of the gym right away is because my leg is still in the process ...

 Great song. ANYWAY wowee people are actually reading this  Well folks, it's been a week since my diagnosis. I essentially dropped my blood sugar levels to HALF of what it was at the Drs. My body feels greaaattt but my mind is catching up a bit. No coffee (trying to stay hydrated) no carbs, no starch, little dairy, little fruit, little corn based products, no soda, no juice. But how do I feel? Like I can move my body better, breathing feels better. I do have to say you really value the taste of your food when you're eating less. It's almost like when you're eating shit, you keep eating because you're never satisfied. Let me be clear, I am eating plenty--just like, an appropriate amount for my situation. I am crushing it. ::I DO MY HAIR TOSS, CHECK MY NAILS:: It just has to continue I know I have a great support system, of all varieties. I have my momma bear friend, who reminds my clumsy ass to tie my shoes (Here's looking at you Nicole) who has always been a gre...

 Honestly, the hardest and best thing I have ever done. Let’s talk about anxiety. I’m not talking PTSD level. I’m talking about the situations everyone experiences, for instance: -Reading text messages and misinterpreting the tone or overall meaning from the sender. This happens for a couple of reasons. For one, there is a lack of tangible connection. No tone of voice, no physical indicators (body language) on a primal level we instinctively know how to read. Some are better than others at this (Empaths), but a complete removal of these two indicators leave you to your biological drives. In this case, it would be self preservation, subcategory fear of the unknown). If you feel like this happens to you and a loved one, acknowledge the conversation should be in person or over the phone. Tough conversations might be scary, but if you are afraid of being misconstrued, just wait till you can have a more personal conversation. -FOMO , there’s even an urban dictionary slang abbreviation f...

We can all agree that 2020 was a tough year. For me, it meant growth, confrontation of self. I spent the year reflecting on who I am, what I want, and who I have been, good and bad. I am proud to say that I am stronger than ever, I no longer feel weighed down by my past… Until this Tuesday that is. It’s strange how past trauma can come out of nowhere and just smack you in the face. Mine came out at the Drs office. I went in for an ongoing issue, and came out absolutely terrified.  Now don’t get me wrong, I go to one of the best hospitals in the world, the care is excellent. If you are a woman I am sure you can agree that once you find healthcare professionals you can trust, you hold on for dear life. And I am. I found out I have Diabetes… to clarify, I’ve had pre-diabetes since highschool, and I have been managing it and been doing fine for years. But between a lot of factors including the pandemic, this appears far past the time they would have liked to have started helping me. Th...