Forming Habits

 It's been 3 weeks baby, which according to my mom friend Nicole, is how long it takes to change habits.

And I feel it. I get excited and even prefer to cook my own food. When I am bored, I pick a dance workout routine on YouTube. I think part of my overeating is a mixture of boredom and wanting something tasty in my mouth. So, I am filling my time. 

Listen, I used to hate it when people tried to force changes on me. It's like they were taking my security blanket away (ie my weight). But I don't know, once I was facing an early death, I needed to confront those fears and make a change. 

There is something about saying your deepest darkest thoughts out loud that makes it real. I addressed my fear of losing too much weight with my Drs and I just knew it was time- and I'm no longer afraid. 

But what I want to encourage all of you to do: eat better. You will have more energy. You will sleep better. Your poops will be easier. Your hair will feel healthier. Your skin will feel healthier. You CAN eat healthy and be completely full and find what you're eating to be delicious. Don't wait till you don't have a choice.

Also, I am not convinced anyone needs bread.

My blood sugar has been in the green for about a week. Ranging from 80-120. I decided if I keep this up till September, I will be getting a tattoo to reward myself. 

Still crushing it! Much love

Samantha

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